Iâm sorry that you feel yourself unable to resist the urge to respond when you feel provoked. For better or for worse, resisting that urge is part of being an adult and getting along with other people. Do you react to people in person the way that you react to people on here?
As for the âfull storyâ, I donât know which one you are referring to, but perhaps that story needs to be left behind so that a new one can be written? Or at least a new chapter can be started? Either way, old stories that get in the way of civil discourse usually donât help their writers in any positive way.